Happy birthday.
Why do we say it? Is it because we genuinely hope that the person will feel happy on that day? Or do we say it because of convention? Because that’s the way things always were so that’s how things will go? Do we even mean it?
I just had my 22nd birthday occur this past Thursday. And no, I did not feel happy. Well, not exactly. The most exciting event of that day was a criminal law tutorial that wasn't even my own. I went for two crim law tutorials that day, and had probably the longest school day so far, moot court appearance excepted. And within a few hours of the end of the tute, my birthday had come and gone. And no-one here knew. I'm not asking for attention, far from it, but really, I do wonder if we do mean that.
I can't remember the last time I actually felt happy on my birthday. Like when was the last time I genuinely celebrated and stuff? I can remember the worst so far, 18th. Parents visiting day. Also happened to be one of the worst tekan sessions. Sweet. Probably haven't had much of a celebration since, I can't remember, when my age started being double digits? Granted, I'm not one for celebrations, but...
I don't know if it's me being cynical or having a bit of downtime or anything. I mean, the low point of the 22nd was that I almost got knocked down by a car while walking home. Nice isn't it? Makes it real easy for people to remember. Here he was, lived and died on the same day, 22 years to the dot.
I'm not expecting much difference for the coming few, my birthday just doesn't mean much anymore. I once forgot my own birthday, was it the 19th or 20th, or both? Maybe it's just me.
Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own'
Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone
And it all seems so hopeless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land
And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles spend their time collapsing
Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough
It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago
And I feel stuck watching history repeating
Yeah who am I just a kid who knows he's needy
Why do we say it? Is it because we genuinely hope that the person will feel happy on that day? Or do we say it because of convention? Because that’s the way things always were so that’s how things will go? Do we even mean it?
I just had my 22nd birthday occur this past Thursday. And no, I did not feel happy. Well, not exactly. The most exciting event of that day was a criminal law tutorial that wasn't even my own. I went for two crim law tutorials that day, and had probably the longest school day so far, moot court appearance excepted. And within a few hours of the end of the tute, my birthday had come and gone. And no-one here knew. I'm not asking for attention, far from it, but really, I do wonder if we do mean that.
I can't remember the last time I actually felt happy on my birthday. Like when was the last time I genuinely celebrated and stuff? I can remember the worst so far, 18th. Parents visiting day. Also happened to be one of the worst tekan sessions. Sweet. Probably haven't had much of a celebration since, I can't remember, when my age started being double digits? Granted, I'm not one for celebrations, but...
I don't know if it's me being cynical or having a bit of downtime or anything. I mean, the low point of the 22nd was that I almost got knocked down by a car while walking home. Nice isn't it? Makes it real easy for people to remember. Here he was, lived and died on the same day, 22 years to the dot.
I'm not expecting much difference for the coming few, my birthday just doesn't mean much anymore. I once forgot my own birthday, was it the 19th or 20th, or both? Maybe it's just me.
Wish I had what I needed
To be on my own'
Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone
And it all seems so hopeless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land
And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles spend their time collapsing
Let me know that you hear me
Let me know your touch
Let me know that you love me
Let that be enough
It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago
And I feel stuck watching history repeating
Yeah who am I just a kid who knows he's needy
posted by Timothy at 9/17/2007 12:35:00 AM
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