Why does it feel all so strange? BLock leave is here...i've got two this month but i simply have NO holiday mood. Maybe cuz i'm staying back in Sg this time? God knows. I sure would like to get outta this place and go off to somewhere and lose myself...haha. Yeah right. But yes to going off somewhere else...prefably for good. Seems like most of my friends are all going overseas...esp those gonna enlist soon...n i feel so stuck here. Like...can't get out? Sure...post ORD and i'm off to some faraway land but but...i dunno. It's block leave leh...no holiday mood damn sian one, you know. Also...i really dunno what's come over me. Mum has like...booked tickets for the whole family to Japan and i'm not the least bit excited. I mean...this is the land of the rising sun..this is JAPAN...number one most people's holiday lists, i'm going there come september and i'm not the least bit excited. Surely i can't be that numb? Or can i? I sure hope not...i must be nuts.

Possibly its just another phase...feeling so...static. Not exactly good that the running bug has bitten and i'm feeling damn...i dunno...just wanna run? I did run today...and for the first time...feels like i didn't run enough. That coming from me is a rare comment indeed...considering all the excuses that i throw in simply to escape from running. Just what is happening to me? I feel so...out of my skin. Sick...i just feel like felling speed now...like...i dunno going 320km/h? Maybe i just wanna feel fragile...so i can feel alive again. Possibly that's why i wanna do skydiving. Possibly take it up as a serious sport. Rock wall climbing too. Two extreme sports...so i can get an adrenaline rush. Drug addict? Funny way of looking at things.

Anyways...in a surprising twist...my PC has just got a scholarship to...University of Wollongong. Of all places...that means i'll be seeing him next year in Sydney. Ha... Life is funny, eh?