Really dunno how i should feel now. Just got back from KL, mixed holiday...so so train ride back...but, details of that later. For now...

Good news...i got into UNSW's Life Sciences Foundation Year, with a provisional entry into their Bachelor of Medical Science programme. Cool.... Happy? I dunno....probably oo tired to feel that way now. But pieces of my dream are starting to manifest. I'm living it...sorta.

One realitiy that sank in was that i'm really pulling off a large bet. Hugely on myself and my ability. With only O levels, i'm practically walking on thin air till i get my degree. If i fall, i've got no paper qualifications to fall back on. But heck, i made the decision then, and i'm sticking to it now. Crossroads are now in my cross-hairs. I can opt for poly still, but i still don't see the point in heading in that direction. Call me arrogant, but i feel that that's chickening out. Poly's too easy for me, at least i feel that there's not enough of a challenge for me, nor is it a stepping stone to my dreams. But....i feel i'm missing out on a fun part of teenage life. A part of growing up. Reason one for not going into poly was it no being a challenge, nor a stepping stone. Reason two is the fear of complacency. I'm reading Bachelor level thesis, and getting most of it, in my spare time. My fear is that if poly really is too easy, i may get complacent and fall. In the end, mum n dad play for 3 more yrs of expensive poly life down the drain. No matter what, i'm gonna stick to my guns and fight to the very end. All As and into Med School.