OK so it didn't go down too well. But then again...this was not unexpected, actually, this is more of what i expected would be the outcome. Frankly i just couldn't see the both of us together anymore. why i did what i did, i may never know. i wasn't crazy over her, and yet what i did suggested to my friends that i was. that's life isn't it. unpredictable.

very. why an average guy like me would wanna go for med...it's a mystery even to me. the raw fact that i wanna go to med....heck it shocked most ppl i know...at least those who knew me then. then comes the matters of the heart. adel was never the kinda girl i thought i would fall for. ruth seemed more of the ideal girlfriend. somehow....i ended up falling for adel instead. comparing the two...ruth seems so much more mature, plus i feel more comfortable with her, she seems able to read my mind. i guess if i weren't as ambitious as i was, and if not for the fact that ruth ended up attached so soon after i knew her...i'd probably end up with her. who knows. then i may not even have fallen for adel. else...i dunno how life would turn out if that happened. maybe that's why i'm interested in kelly. cuz i see bits of ruth in her? mayb. but that wouldn't b fair to her... seems better that i not know her at all. i guess simply moving on would be best now. go to a new country new environment, new friends, new routines, new worries, new problems. i guess that be best now....just waitin for what comes by and not plan my life to death...